October is closing and the holiday season is creeping up on us. How crazy that 2021 is almost done!!
This year has been a good one for me, full of huge unexpected blessings and new people and adventures, but also a lot of things I didn’t expect at all.
I probably mentioned this year that I was going on a missions trip to Uganda, Africa in November. It was something I had been looking forward to since June of 2020.
Everything was tentative (covid of course) for a long time, but at the end of September, it finally seemed like we would really go. I’d bought my plane ticket in April and had fundraised all summer. I got my yellow fever vaccine (required by the country of Uganda), my passport, and nearly started packing when we realized… we couldn’t go.
With covid restrictions and complications, we had to cancel the trip.
And it took a minute to settle in. I almost couldn’t believe that God would have me wait so long- a year and a half, to get my hopes up, and then have the trip canceled.
A part of me wanted to be upset with Him. This is my calling! This is what I’m supposed to do! I was even supposed to land in Uganda on my 17th birthday. It seemed like everything was coming together in His timing, and it felt perfect.
When I received the news that our trip was canceled, I immediately felt this huge assurance.
“You’ll be okay.”
And I felt His arms wrap around me. I knew right away that this was His timing and not my own. It honestly didn’t sink in until I was sitting in church the following Sunday and we prayed the Lord’s prayer.
Our Father who art in heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done
on earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us,
and lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
For thine is the kingdom and the power, and the glory,
forever and ever.
Thy will be done. It struck me… how often do I say this and need to believe it!!
And I feel like this is something we all struggle with and will struggle with continually as Christians. How to say ‘yes’ to God when he says ‘no.’
So here are the things that have helped me lately in accepting His will:
- Surrender is powerful. SO powerful! Giving every little bit and stepping back has helped so much. It’s not easy to place all of our worries and anxious thoughts into His hands, but there is this huge sense of peace He gives when we do.
- Prayer. There is so much to be said for prayer but coming to my Father and just saying “Okay, You’ve got this,” even if that is all I can say has been really incredible as well. “…do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” (Phil 4:6)
- Surround yourself with community. I’m so blessed with amazing Christian friends and family who lift me up and call me when I need to talk. Surrounding yourself with good people is really, really important. I need my people and God made it that way!! “Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.” (1 Thessalonians 5:11)
I recently talked about not having all the answers (here), and it’s something I’ve been continually reminding myself. I have no idea why I’m not supposed to be in Africa next month.
But His timing, His will is everything. And I can’t wait to see the why. Maybe I’ll see it soon or maybe it’ll be years down the road. But I’m trusting my Father!
I don’t have all the answers but I just wanted to encourage you all in this! I know that I am not the only one who has had God completely change our plans. His plan is amazing though, isn’t it?
// hadassah margaret //